i've got something new coming up and i have been terribly nervous about it. nightmares etc. my bestie says that i shouldn't let fear dominate and that i love proving myself in situations like this (which can be true, though i really am not interested in doing that anymore). mississippi says he supports whatever i do and that putting yourself in situations that you don't want to be in is fruitless. it's also a new year and i'm itching for many changes. including breaking the habit of putting myself in situations i don't want to be in.
so here i am. shaken awake in my swivel chair and searching my gut.