1. i'm doing okay with the no-cussing. there have been a few slip-ups but i was expecting that. it takes a few days to clear the pipes of habitual expletive useage.
2. psychology is fun and interesting. but, not when you're in it up to your belly button.
3. i'm not chargin' at my odd-numbered day workouts like i would prefer; but, i am doing bits here and there. even though i was exhausted this morning, i still made myself do some ab-related exercises. that was even before coffee! it won't happen unless i roll out of bed and do it right then and there. any distraction at all, using the potty, drinking coffee, drinking coffee while using the potty...and it simply won't happen at all.
4. i haven't used my credit card at all this month thus far. yay! i'm seriously considering theoretically freezing it from here on out. i want to break the cycle of deprivation, over-indulgence, guilt. repetition.
5. i'm happy today, if not very tired. i had a loooooooong night on the phone with lots of tears and stuff. but, i truly am determined to be happy no matter what. happiness takes concerted effort not ditch-diggin' work. it is far to easy to ruminate in the negative and i refuse to keep doing that. it's giving me wrinkles and i am too vain to deal with wrinkles right now.
6. i want a leather bomber jacket. i would actually prefer a non-leather jacket because i feel guilty for some reason even though i wear leather shoes and leather belts. i like this one from victorias secret:
i am aware i will not look like her in this jacket. but i still want it.
7. i'm planning a trip. either in late august or over labour day weekend. i need it. i want it. i can't afford it. but i'm planning it anyways.
adieu for now, lu
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