today i miss autumn. as much as i love a summer rainstorm, which i am delighted to report is occurring right now, i long for autumn. i long for a city that changes colours for the season. i long to be happy and bundled up in a sweater, walking seven through a pumpkin patch. idealized? maybe. possible? i hope so.
i have to figure out this next step because i'm chomping at the bit. i'm not restless per se, but i'm ready and rarin'.
i want to smell spices in the air and feel a chill on my skin. go to bonfires and see piles of raked leaves. i want to live more simply and eat good food. i want to laugh more than i do. i don't know if that's asking too much. i laugh all the time. and i know a new city won't change everything in my life that i feel needs changing. i'm aware that one cannot run away from things.
i just...yearn for autumn today.